Sunday, September 04, 2005 @9:13 AM
life has been difficult for me to handlebut i found a reason for me to overcome these fears;you were the one.you were the one who has been motivating me;you are my inspirationthough you may not have realised that every message you sent has an impact on me.seriously,i did expected us to be more than friends.but i just realised that i was being silly.how could i even think of searching for love in someone i just got to know?but now i tried to change;be independant and not rely on you so much.but i just can't take it,the fact of not messaging for even one day.realised that you were special,in a way or another,that i love you.
yes.surprisingly.i do love you.though i know that you just treat me like a normal friend.you just dont understand how much you mean to me in my life.but why cant you?you knew that i always get worried over you,whenever you dont reply my messagesdeep inside,i always thought that you needed me.but what happened?everything's wrong now.everything.you expect me to be messaging you first.im already tired of that,dear prince.i've been trying to tell you that you're the only one i love,and the only one i care for.but still,why do i need to wait for so long for you to make the first move?dont you know that i've always rejected people for your sake.and you did this to me.after i confessed,you still did not say anything i wanted you to in return.why?you know that i've always wanted to tell you that i loved you.it was just because of the lack of courage that prevents me from doing so.i've loved you for so long.ever since i saw you,i knew you would make a great impact on me.i knew.but now,i dont seem to be recieving the love i gave to you in return.i've always waited for you to start a chat with me on msn.but it turns out that I am always the one starting the conversation.sigh.is this what we call a one-sided love?is this?i never felt this heartbroken before.and a guy whom i loved and trusted so much did this to me.cant you imagine how terrible im feeling now?i dont have the guts to send you messages anymore.im shy now after confessing to you.i dont know how to talk to you anymore.everything's just so totally blank.sigh.i still have no clue whether you love me or not.why do you need to do this to me?why must you play with my love?
i love you.i still do.