Saturday, September 23, 2006 @11:51 AM
it's just a status.i know it.after what chinhao told me a few days ago, i have been reflecting on myself latetly. i know i've been such a bitch all this time. and honestly, it isn't nice being one either.
previously, i'm always taking things for granted. people would
always give me surprises, just hoping that i would give them a hug in return, or perhaps just a word of
thank you. but no, i'll just go " oh, okay." or, i'll start scolding them for not telling me in advance. and, it's really dumb of me for scolding them, since if they told me, then it wouldn't be a
surprise already.
another thing is that i'm always not appreciating those around me. only when they start leaving me, then i'll know how much they mean to me. i'm always the one waiting for the rest to take the initiative to say/do stuff. but i'm
never the one taking the initiative. and that is like
really unfair to the rest, i know.
and and, what is with me when anybody asks me out, i'll just give them an "anything" answer, or an " i'll think about it" answer. when deep inside me, i'm dying to go out with them. it's either a yes or no, why must i be so silly as to complicate things? and to make others think that i'm reluctant to go out with them?
alright, i know there's more to it.